Shame tucked away in the greyscale, jagged nooks and crannies of my mind, I ruminated over the stupid questions I asked during the staff meeting. Making myself as small as possible, I tried to become invisible.
Crippled by rising feelings of insecurity and shame, lies poured over my soul like a knarled hand ladling them from a frothing, black cauldron. I suddenly doubted my abilities, contributions, and even my mental capabilities.
Self-doubt plagued my thoughts:
- Was I the only one asking questions?
- Am I too outdated to keep up?
- Am I no longer a valued, contributing team member?
The patronizing communication during the meeting held my thoughts hostage the rest of the day and into the next. But that morning in my time with Jesus, I heard His gentle voice, “Whose words are you abiding in?”
I realized I was meditating—rather, perseverating—on other people’s words and perceived thoughts about me.
Through counseling, I learned the process of introspection for the purpose of identifying negative thoughts and false beliefs. This would be an opportunity to listen to my Good Shepherd, allowing His truth to transform my false narratives.
And the Lord—who is Spirit—makes us more and more like Him as we are changed into His glorious image. 2 Cor.3:18
Time in His presence for the purpose of transformation has become an important practice to keep me from lingering in shame and doubt. Through Scripture, reflection, and prayer, the trash uncovered becomes His treasure of transformation.
As I opened my heart to Jesus, His truth washed over the lies, enabling me to shift my thoughts back to who He says I am: beloved daughter.
Peering into past failures and present insecurities and doubts, Jesus revealed how He sees me despite my shortsightedness—complete and completely His. He also reminded me that as His daughter, He has given me everything I need to accomplish whatever He calls me to do.
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Eph. 2:9
Friend, what lies are keeping you stuck in insecurity or shame?
- I don’t have what it takes.
- I’m too big of a mess.
- I’m irrelevant.
Allow Scripture to read your soul, confronting the lies confounding your identity as God’s beloved, calling out your deepest fears and doubts from darkness into His glorious light.
As His truth washes over your soul, He will reveal your legitimate identity in Him—a masterpiece He lovingly created, called and continually equips. (Eph.1)
Sitting in the truths of Scripture, Jesus rescued me from the lies I chose to believe at that meeting. He brought me back to the truth of who I am as His beloved daughter and the abilities He gives me to do the good work He continues calling me to do.
Faithful is He who called you, for He will bring it to pass. 1 Thes.5:24
Weekly Health Tip- Go green for health!
Green fruits and veggies are probably the most famous of the plant colors, and here are a few reasons why. They are known to help with:
- Cancer prevention
- Anti-inflammatory effects
- Brain & heart health
- Hormone balance
- Skin & liver health
Sources: artichoke, asparagus, avocado, bell pepper, bok choy broccoli, brussels, cabbage, celery, cucumber, green beans, green tea, dark leafy greens, lime, pear, zucchini